God Calls All Of Us

I met a public defender in the gallery of probate court before my trial.

I had absolutely no idea what was happening.

She told me I needed to sit there and be quiet.

She said it was supposed to sting, like alcohol being applied to clean a wound.

So I sat quietly.

When the witness was deposed, I wrote the word "OBJECT" on a piece of paper several times and slid it over to her.

She objected to everything.

I still carry that initial sting.

There were seven more hearings. Different branches of the court. Sometimes a new attorney. Sometimes my assigned attorney. Sometimes an attorney I hired myself.

Trust me...

It's not at all what you think.

When you say that God calls all of us,
I think about the things I've been through.
My medical history, my lawyers,
And everything I've had to do.

I've learned to listen, learned to wait,
Learned when to speak and when to stay.
I've learned that silence isn't yes,
And being still doesn't mean distress.

So when you say it's meant to be,
I hope you'll leave some room for me.

If you love someone, you set them free.
If you like someone, you negotiate.

You weigh the pros and cons,
You calculate.

My love for you is real,
My honesty is meant to set you free.

I'm not turning down your blessing,
I already know you love me.

(Ooo-ooo, I already know!)

I don't want to hurt you, that's the thing,
I know the kindness that you bring.
Some people say I'm much too frank,
That I should let the truth unfold.

They say don't show your hand too soon,
Let things develop, leave some room.
But I don't want to play along
And find out later I was wrong.

I can receive what you give to me,
Without surrendering my liberty.

If you love someone, you set them free.
If you like someone, you negotiate.

You weigh the pros and cons,
You calculate.

My love for you is real,
My honesty is meant to set you free.

I'm not turning down your blessing,
I already know you love me.

(Ooo-ooo, I already know!)

What's bound on earth, what's bound above,
What's loosed in heaven, what's loosed in love?

We give to Caesar what is his,
But there's a difference, isn't there?

Everything done in dark will show,
There's nothing God does not already know.

The seen, the unseen, all of me,
I don't know what else there is to see.

You can tell me what you believe,
You can offer what you see.
You can tell me God has called,
But you cannot answer that for me.

I can say yes without a deal,
I can say no and still be real.

My relationship isn't yours to negotiate.

If you love someone, you set them free.
If you like someone, you negotiate.

You weigh the pros and cons,
You calculate.

My love for you is real,
My honesty is meant to set you free.

I'm not turning down your blessing,
I already know you love me.

(Ooo-ooo, I already know!)

My honesty is meant...

To set you free.

I'm not turning down your blessing.

I already know you love me.

I already know...

I already know...

(Ooo-ooo-ooo...)

I already know.